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charcoal on paper
30 x 40" each

This diptych uses visual metaphor to illustrate the difference between how an adult may utilize facility in language to describe a traumatic event and how a child may use simpler language to convey that same event. The second image in this selection is a charcoal rubbing of simple, wooden child blocks arranged to fill out a similar space to the falling figure. The blocks are a representation of a child's rudimentary language trying to explain the incident, with all of the connotations of 'rubbing' included (a grave stone rubbing that attempts to preserve and memorialize, but also the sexual undertones of the word rubbing). Like a child trying to call for help, trying to show, draw, explain with non-adult language or maturity, its mystery and subtleness reflects the depth of trauma a child experiences. The vagueness evokes the difficulty of processing the fog of manipulation, but also references the brain’s compulsion to figuratively and literally draw-out a cohesive silhouette to make sense of the event and seek protection in adults if attachments are healthy.
This pairing also addresses the way an unexamined memory can remain framed by its original context well into adulthood. This relates to a danger in unhealthy attachment figures and legal statutes. They limit when a person can come forward or process, regardless of the time an individual needs to remember/verbalize. If the victim is surrounded by people uncomfortable with the truth, and therefore complicit in silence, this puts the victim in a position to have to choose between breaking silence (risking attachments) and remaining silent (carrying/prioritizing the comfort of others)…completely to the benefit of sexual predators.